6.23.2009

On This Day.......

So originally this started out as a way to express grief, in a way that perhaps others with grieving hearts wouldn't feel so alone. Grieving is a process so personal, and has a life of it's own. I am reminded of this as another father's day passes and remember it was 3 years ago to that day that I heard my brother's and father's voice.

My father and I had a great connection and conversation that day. I thanked him for the thoughtful birthday card he sent on his own (we shared a birthday month, and mom usually got the card. This year he insisted on picking his own...) I shared my future dreams with him, receiving his blessing and support, We told each other we love one another and think of one another every day.
My brother and I played phone tag, leaving messages for one another, his voice full of joy as he has 3 wonderful sons and a wife that lit up his life.

I know its just a day, but I never thought I would see them buried just a few days later.
It is a harsh but necessary lesson to witness the fragility of life. To live your Truth and share your Love moment to moment, for you never know when those moments will cease.

Although this thought is still a shock, These days grief is like rolling waves.....life seems bigger now as I carry their spirits, in a way.....and like any big waves, if you wanna play in the game, you need to know how to roll with it. Sometimes its not always graceful.

I am so thankful to my friends and this Love that supports me. The beauty & light that I have been blessed to be sent my way is all the encouragement I need sometimes.
The graciousness of Love soothes a grieving heart.

Thank you friends and family. I Love you.